I hate having to do this again but it's reached the point where I need to do it for my mental health. Some wonderful things have happened so far this semester, the most important of which was finally obtaining my private pilot's license. It was a wonderful feeling that lasted for all of about one day because the next day I was waist deep in Commercial flight work. That's the life of pilot training, there's always something new to do with no time to waste! I also got the chance to network with many pilots throughout the region, and I'm extremely excited that I was offered to tour Cummins' flight operations facility later this week. For those of you that don't know, flying corporate is something that normally requires 20-30 years in the airlines before they will even consider you. Being impressive to a company such as Cummins right now is absolutely a win for me. With the pilot shortage, there is a very real possibility that I could spend my life flying corporate, which would be a very awesome opportunity.
However, things haven't been all blue skies and smooth air (literally, it's been pretty crappy weather this semester). When I last blogged, I was letting out my frustration with the relationship I had been in at the time. I was struggling, and I needed to let my thoughts be known. It is that time again. When I returned for winter break, that relationship was rekindled. It felt so wonderful to be back with the woman I loved, and it was a great time. However, it ended as suddenly as it returned. Unfortunately, this one was not on as good of terms as the last one. It was absolutely heartbreaking because the last time I talked to her in person was about 30 minutes before we began to separate. Yeah, it was one of those. It hurt me bad to be told that I didn't really love someone and that I didn't need to be part of their life anymore. I understand that their life was better without me, but I just don't know, I feel so blindsided by what happened then. I was told a couple weeks later that a friendship may be a possibility in the future but that was before I got blocked on social media, so I'm pretty sure even that's out of the picture. I don't know if the way I feel about it will remain, but if it does life ain't gonna be too good, if you feel me. I think it goes without saying that I'm not over this relationship, and that's ok. I still can't bring myself to delete the pictures or get rid of the love/infatuation letters or any of the tickets of things we went to. This was someone who I thought would be in my life for a while, but I guess I shouldn't have assumed as much. Anyways, there were a lot of good memories made and a lot of fun times had. Most importantly, I can see where I went wrong in this relationship and where I can make any future possible relationship better. Who knows, maybe one day I'll be able to at least have a friendship with this person in the future, and maybe the feelings will return a long ways down the road, but I just wish I could have it now. Patience is a virtue I don't have very much of (heck, I barely make it on 865 whenever I come home because I can't stand to run 5 miles per hour under the speed limit for 30 seconds), and I guess for my own good I need to increase that.
Anyways, I'm hopping on a plane at 5am and heading down to St. Pete to watch my beloved IndyCar Series run its first race of the year. Maybe I'll just marry one of those cars instead. Or better yet race one. Oh if I had a couple million bucks.
